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So, it seems as if since this school year started, and even before that, my life as just been... not completely depressing just never all right. And today just added to it.

We had to put Missy down.

It feels wierd without her here. I never remember her not being here, somewhere, like outside or in the kitchen or chasing abby around, or even when she used to play tug of war with me.

For a while she was getting sicker and sicker, and then for the past three days she hasn't been eating and she never wanted to get out of her kennel. Just recently she stopped drinking, since anything that went into her stomach she threw back up. So, we took her to the vet.

My dad didn't want me to go but i knew i had to, otherwise i would've felt worse.

He told us that she had a weak heart, and with what had previously happened, she was suffering, difenatley, and that, if we gave her medicine, for one, it would only prolong her life another few days, and months if we were lucky, and two, that he couldn't gauruntee it would make her not suffer. I knew it was going to happen but.. i just couldn't fathom it happening. I was there with her the entire time, from when he gave her the injection until...

It was... horrible to say the least.

We're having her cremated. I guess cuz that's what my dad wanted, but i do think its a good idea.

It's gonna be so wierd here for a while... *sigh*